I am 2 too many mimosas with brunch, I’m that girl who can’t
stop shopping at pacsun, I am a night owl by nature, I’m the girl who over analyzes
EVERYTHING, I’m happiest when I’m on the back of my babes brit bike, I’m the Baptist
church drop out, I’m a Michelob Ultra and a shot of Fireball, I’m the social
media obsessed, I’m the girl who loves running, I’m the girl with chipped
fingernail polish, I’m the late night party host, and the girl who writes songs
in the shower, I’m the Leslie Knope of our Parks & Recreation Department, I’m
the girl who’s always on a diet, I’m the singer that will always be nervous, I’m
the band flyer creator, I’m the hopeless romantic and the piano induced lover, I’m
the girl that posts way too many photos of my collie, and way too many photos all
together, I’m the coveted traveler, and the girl with no enemies, I’m the girl
who sinks under her thoughts, and who rises to any occasion, I’m the self taught
photographer and graphic artist, I’m the college grad and I’m the girl who will
never allow myself to be satisfied with this life but who will be eternally
happy regardless.
Friday, February 28, 2014
Friday, February 21, 2014
Home Journeys - My Playlist
Yesterday, as I was giving the ‘ol casa a good clean, I found myself observing what I liked and what I didn't like about our house. It’s a rent house so I can talk crap about it and just make mental notes for when I’m rich enough to change all the things I don’t like. But it also made me think about all the houses I've ever lived in, and cleaned and observed like that. I had a weird observation that with every new place I live I gain a better grip on my life and what I desire and who I am, as weird as that is. My mind links emotions and feelings and experiences and relationships to places and pictures and smells and so in a way, every place I've called home has become a part of this body and my soul and my journey. It’s perfect timing to be reminiscing back on the last couple of places I've lived being that its ‘Flashback Friday,’ and also considering I’m in the happiest home ever right now. It didn't used to be like that however.
I think back in my life to all the different homes or apartments I've lived, about 8 total at this point, and I can assign an emotion to each place. Considering I've lived with 3 different boyfriends at this point (officially and non-officially) there are some happy and sad emotions that erupt. I could literally sit here thinking back to each situation and say that everything that I loved I have carried with me in some way, and everything that I hated I left there. I also can’t be thankful enough that I’m not in any of those homes and that I am exactly where I am now. I’m glad that Brandon and I are cohabiting perfectly in our little rent house in ghetto Wolflin that just got broken into and that has horrible plumbing and window units that we have created so many memories in, from late night musical magic to training a puppy and growing as a couple side by side. Considering all the flirting emotion that this topic brings up I thought it would be really fun to create a playlist (since everything in my life relates back to music) with songs representing all the homes I've been through. I could explain what each song meant or why I chose it but I’ll leave that to your own imagination, some details are better left out. Enjoy
1 Really the whole yellow submarine album by the Beatles, but specifically the song 'Hey Bulldog'
2 'Hurricane Waters' - Citizen Cope
3 'House of Cards' - Radiohead
4 'Two Step' - Dave Matthews
5 'Islands' - The XX
6 'Somersault' - Zero 7
7 'Girl Named Tenessee' - NeedToBreathe
8 'Wildfire' ft. Little Dragon - Sbtrkt
9 'The Look' - Jacques Green
10 'The Keeper' ft. Andreya Triana (Banks Remix)
11 'This Head That I Hold' - Electric Guest
12 'First Day of My Life' - Bright Eyes
Bonus Tracks (a few tunes I'm currently jammin')
13 'The Remains of Rock & Roll' - Broken Bells
14 'Another Girl' - Wild Belle
15 'Colored Emotions' - Night Moves
16 'Modern Jesus' - Portugal. The Man
Friday, January 3, 2014
Stand Up Robbery
Upon arrival home for lunch yesterday I realized that our home had been broken into. Le sigh. But after a quick run through of the house we found that the ONLY items stolen were:
-2 guns; a vintage 22 revolver and a Rossi 357 (glad I didn't come home mid-break in after they found those)
-A gold Nixon watch (or gold plated)
-a handful of our jewelry
-a prepaid cell phone from Walmart (great steal!)
-about $50 worth of change
-umm oh yeah and all the beer in our fridge?? (Did we get robbed by teenagers?)
Robbery tips by Indie:
Call the cops about 3 hours before you even discover that your house has been broken into because that way you will both arrive home to the same mess at the same time.
Don't have ANY wood in your house, because apparently wood prevents all hope for a good finger print.. Sorry you rustic muther fuckers.
Don't bother locking your windows because they are going to kick down your back door In the most macho way possible regardless.
Also, if you value your costume jewelry collection from Icing, don't leave it in fancy jewelry plates on display.
Girls, just accept the fact that your panty drawer will be ransacked because of some cliche bitch who kept her valuables there once upon a time.
Plan on buying more beer, apparently robbing a house is really tiring and deserves a celebratory beer.
Plan on reorganizing EVERYTHING, just consider it a late spring cleaning.
Hope your mailman isn't sick.
Maybe Macaulay Culkin had the right idea in home alone, only mix a little walking dead season 3 episode 12 in there and booby trap your house to where the next person that comes in uninvited gets a swift ax to the throat... I mean is that to much?
But in all reality I hope you guys know I'm joking a bit about the situation because we got lucky and they really didn't get much of anything from us... Considering everything they could have taken.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Lets give thanks
I get so nostalgic about this time of year because I enjoy the time spent with my family but I also wish that was all it was about. Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because it’s simple (if you let it be) but its also fun and relaxing and all of my friends and family from out of town travel my way to celebrate. It’s just a time meant to reflect on what you’re thankful for, and that means a lot in this self-absorbed instant satisfaction way of life. People get so excited (I don’t know why) about Christmas and that devilish day of shopping we call black Friday that it seems like thanksgiving doesn't get its deserved recognition. Considering right now I am in a great place in life and I have lots of things to be thankful for, I want to give a shout out to those that help make my life wonderful. I am a lucky gal and this thanksgiving is one for the books and I want to be able to look back years from now and remember each and every reason my life was so damn wonderful.
I am so thankful for my family. I know that’s a given in most cases, but
seriously every person in my family has a heart of gold. My wonderful supportive kind father and my
sweet step mom, my crazy spontaneous and wonderful mom, and my amazing
grandparents who are probably the greatest people I know (you don’t see genuine
people like them anymore). And
especially my brother Jason who is one of my best friends and my step sister
Darbi who is living the dream in London, both who I look up to tremendously and
who have achieved so much already – they make me a proud sister.
I am definitely thankful for my boyfriend, best friend,
partner in crime and the love of my life Brandon. He has given me more than I can even begin to
thank him for. He helped me learn to
play music and pushed me to where I am vocally and we have shared so many
wonderful nights growing together because of that. He treats me like a queen and he loves me
like crazy and there’s nowhere I’d rather be than when my head is resting on
his chest. I love you beb, you are my
inspiration and I am so thankful that we found each other when we did.
I am also incredibly thankful for all my great friends;
Jaala- girl you have been there by my side through so much, we have a
friendship that can’t be broken and I hope you know if I ever get married you’re
going to be my maid of honor. Maggie and
Lindsey- wow, girls we have something wonderful going on musically with Jack & Ginger and I am so
blessed to be able to make music with such talented and driven women as you! Alex, Tara, Carley, Sam, Sarah, Katy- you girls are
awesome and I’m glad we have such a great group of girls to run around town
with, you ladies make this town explicitly beautiful. Zach- I couldn’t forget
about you, even though we have lived in different towns for about 6 years now I
still consider you one of my closest pals and I appreciate your friendship to
the moon and back! I love all of you
guys so much. Seriously, it’s crazy.
I’m also thankful that I have a cozy home that me and
Brandon coexist beautifully in, a job where I get to be creative and active and
do all the things that I love, a bachelors degree (hey I worked really hard for
that), a sweet / very ornery puppy- Arlo, and a car that I officially just paid
off. You gotta be thankful for those
things too!
At the end of the day these are the things that I absolutely
would hate to live without. This year
has been incredible and as it’s nearing its end I am realizing how much my life
is worth. Music, debauchery, a lot of
hard work and so much love. Ok, that’s all
the mushy gayness I can handle… let’s eat drink and be drunk.
Happy Thanksgiving 2013 betches!!!
Monday, November 11, 2013
Self Doubt Monster
Good morning and happy Monday to everyone!
When I got to work this morning, a bit grumpy with a case of
the Mondays, my co-worker came up to me and said that she had a dream about
me. In this dream I was sitting with my
head hung low and I was sad because I had to make a decision that I did not
want to make. Hearing her dream really
gave me chills because I think there have been a lot of decisions I have been
facing lately. Brandon and I have been
planning on moving to a larger city, I've been thinking about getting a
different job, I've been struggling with the idea of ‘religion’ etc. With each big decision comes a whole other
side of life that you leave behind and a whole hell of a lot of self doubt if
you’re anything like me.
After talking to several people, and reading other blogs
that deal with the same issues I think it would benefit everyone to address the
elephant in the room. Self doubt is this
crippling thing that plagues lots and lots of people, and sometimes for no
reason. It’s the voice in the back of your head that tells you that you aren't
good enough or that you aren't smart enough or talented enough or just not
enough of something to accomplish what you are hoping for. I mean, I don’t care who you are or how
confident you are- you have these thoughts at least every now and then. I am a very secure person and you would never
think that I struggle with self doubt in many aspects of my life. I’m not skinny enough, I’m not a good enough
daughter or sister, I’m not motivated enough, I’m not financially responsible
enough, I don’t work hard enough, I’m too old to still be acting this way and I
constantly struggle with being a good enough girlfriend. I can say that I honestly think that all of
those thoughts are equally as motivating as they are poisonous. But the real trick is figuring out how to
turn those potentially destructive thoughts into inspiration.
When these thoughts begin to creep up, or more like
completely take over, it can cause anxiety that is absolutely exhausting. I have been dealing with such thoughts (and I
know I’m not the only one) lately and whether it is related to the shift in
seasons or the time change where it is dark by like 6 pm it has been taking up
too much space in my head. A fight with a loved one, a bad remark from a
co-worker or a boss, a concerned look from a relative or an unsatisfying look
in the mirror can send you over the edge.
Sometimes it takes a slight breakdown to realize that something needs to
change. I am speaking not only about my
own life but also on behalf of several people who have expressed certain
similar feelings here recently. So this
is my advice:
Pause. Breathe. Remember who you are and how you got to
where you are today. It hasn't always
been sunshine and rainbows leading up to right now. It doesn't matter how bad things are right now they will get better, even if
they get worse first.
Reach out. Talk to
someone about how you’re feeling no matter how proud you are. You can’t deal with everything by yourself,
and I recently found that my very best friend was dealing with very similar
matters and a mere lunch date with good conversations made me ten times better.
Don’t compare yourself to ANYONE else. As hard as that seems, this can often be one
of the biggest drivers of self doubt.
When you look at someone else your same age or from your same school
that is doing better than you or who is better off you are putting yourself
below them and that’s wrong. They are on
a completely different path, and what you may see as better off is really just
different. Don’t compare, just aspire. See what you want and go after it, the only
thing stopping you is yourself. It’s
great to have role models and people that inspire you, but don’t see yourself
as their inferior, just realize they are in a different place in life than
you. You will be there soon if you work
towards that.
Don’t listen to your self doubt monster. It is your worst enemy and the biggest
prevention of creativity and positivity and love. You can’t be inspired to create or to express
yourself when you don’t actually believe that you can. There is no failure where there was genuine
effort. This life is yours to try and to
fall and to learn and to make mistakes and that’s perfectly normal, what isn't normal
is preventing yourself from succeeding because you’re scared or self
doubting. You are beautiful, you are
able and with a little desire you can be anything you want to be. Now, please for the both of us, let’s all
start believing this.
As cheesy and unlike me as this post is, sometimes you have
to cross your own boundaries and do things you don’t want to in order to change
where you are… Stop walking down that beaten path and try something new. Push yourself. Fight that monster within.
Monday, November 4, 2013
October via Instagram
October was a very fast paced and exciting month. Fall is always such a shift for my life. I’m always frightened that the temperatures are going to drop so low that my fun outdoorsy life will come to a screeching halt, but in reality it’s really not THAT bad. This year has been quite pleasant actually considering there has only been a couple of nights with temps below 40. This past month has made me grateful and has tested my patience and has kept me on the edge of my seat. I joined a new band, I’ve been focusing on being more active in life through biking and running with friends, my boyfriend and my collie, I’ve actually enjoyed the turning of the season with the fall leaves, and then there were all the incredibly fun Halloween activities.
+ My group of girlfriends and myself decided biking to events was way better than driving and so we biked to the first week of Jazztober held downtown on the chamber of commerce lawn and then had drinks on Polk St.
+ Brandon and I have been together for almost a year and a half and I told a story about the first gift he ever gave me. I appreciate him more than I can ever express.
+A collaboration of harmonies, soul and friendship between me and 4 other very talented musicians became Jack & Ginger.
+ A week and a half after we joined up we were asked to play our first opening gig at the Goldenlight. Show went awesome!
+ Brandon installed a king and queen seat on his Norton 850 Commando and we took it out on the town… seriously one of my very favorite things to do. There’s nothing like holding on to the waist of your love, adventuring around town on a vintage bike!
+ One of my favorite pictures of Arlo after a 6 mile bike/longboard trip around Wolflin and all the way to The 806 and back during a very fun Sunday with my Boys.
+ The changing trees make my outdoor runs very pleasant this time of year.
+ Halloween night #1: I went as a Piñata (DIY piñata dress blog up soon), and Brandon went as my cholo with a bat! He was hitting on me all night ;)
+ Halloween night #2: Last minute shared costume; my friend Katy and I went as the twins from the shinning… “Come play with us Johnny…” Creepy, I know.
I feel as though I have grown a lot this month. Jack & Ginger has forced me outside my comfort zone in music, but has allowed me to gain confidence and has inspired me in so many ways. Brandon and I have had a great time being as active as possible outside before the weather gets cold and it gets dark earlier which has brought us closer. Im excited about November and what all beautiful memories it may bring. Cheers to fall of ’13!
+ Brandon and I have been together for almost a year and a half and I told a story about the first gift he ever gave me. I appreciate him more than I can ever express.
+A collaboration of harmonies, soul and friendship between me and 4 other very talented musicians became Jack & Ginger.
+ A week and a half after we joined up we were asked to play our first opening gig at the Goldenlight. Show went awesome!
+ Brandon installed a king and queen seat on his Norton 850 Commando and we took it out on the town… seriously one of my very favorite things to do. There’s nothing like holding on to the waist of your love, adventuring around town on a vintage bike!
+ One of my favorite pictures of Arlo after a 6 mile bike/longboard trip around Wolflin and all the way to The 806 and back during a very fun Sunday with my Boys.
+ The changing trees make my outdoor runs very pleasant this time of year.
+ Halloween night #1: I went as a Piñata (DIY piñata dress blog up soon), and Brandon went as my cholo with a bat! He was hitting on me all night ;)
+ Halloween night #2: Last minute shared costume; my friend Katy and I went as the twins from the shinning… “Come play with us Johnny…” Creepy, I know.
I feel as though I have grown a lot this month. Jack & Ginger has forced me outside my comfort zone in music, but has allowed me to gain confidence and has inspired me in so many ways. Brandon and I have had a great time being as active as possible outside before the weather gets cold and it gets dark earlier which has brought us closer. Im excited about November and what all beautiful memories it may bring. Cheers to fall of ’13!
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Monday, October 28, 2013
Raydon
Hi how are you?
It’s been a little while since I have posted because I’ve been focusing on other aspects of my life, like music. I have a pretty magical story behind my musical talents if you like love stories and rock and roll. I’ll try not to be too sappy ;).
I grew up listening to my grandma playing these amazing piano pieces and songs from anything hymnal to old 20’s classics. I would share the piano bench with her and just watch her gracefully hit each note precisely to create this powerful sound. I would sing along with the songs I knew and I even learned a few songs from watching her. She would later catch me teaching myself how to play songs based on me humming a note and then matching that note on the piano and decided I should be in piano lessons. I don’t know what ever ended that desire to play piano however, because after about a year of lessons and even a couple of piano recitals I was on to other things. I also played just about every sport possible so I may have just wanted to be outside running around instead of inside sitting at a piano.
Fast forward about 16 years later to last summer when I found that inspiration once again. I had recently started corresponding with a friend who was always playing shows and writing these wonderful songs and who also happened to be a guy that was very attractive and who I was totally crushing on. This guy saw something in me, a desire to learn maybe, and he invested some time into playing with me and teaching me little tricks and tips and he totally kick started one of the things I love to do most in life. Our relationship bloomed, and besides playing music, we fell in love and conquered the world together (or so we thought). Before I knew it, instead of watching him practice with his band, I was asked to play along a little and I’m not quite sure I was good enough but I eventually became a part of the band ‘Wounded Coyote.’ We actually had our very first gig as a quartet last September at a local martini bar downtown in Amarillo which means I’ve been playing shows for over a year now- which is crazy. We all grew pretty close as a band and as friends and we started playing all over and really just had a hell of a time for a good while. The only reason the band split up a few months ago is because our original drummer moved to Hawaii (can’t be mad at her for that), and our replacement drummer and our original bass player decided to go in a different direction with their music.
Brandon and I have always continued to play together, whether at our house or gigging under the name #Raydon, and we will always share a love and passion for music. I was recently asked by a couple of my lady friends who are very talented musicians to play keys and sing in a band they were starting called Jack & Ginger. We had our first show a couple of Thursdays ago and were quickly asked to play a few more shows around town in the next few months. People are really getting hyped about us because; A. we are Amarillo’s only chick band, and B. we’re girls, and we aren’t bad looking ;). Check us out on facebook or #Jack&Gingermusic.
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